Thank you , little dog .
Sorry for the inpromptu updates of my crappy results , but that was the only thing i could think about the past few days . nao that i have submitted my subject forms , i can finally breathe a sigh of relief .
the sinking feeling of failing and disappointment has been lifted ! i feel much more cheerful in some weird way that i almost died and failed my o levels -but i did not . i hope i can get into the course i want to . moving images please take me in ! D:
Congrats to all those who passed ! and dont give up hope just yet for those who didn't make it . as my lao ba always says , life still goes on . still young leh . 17 only , think of giving up yet ? long way ahead . As long as there is a will , there will be a way .
My favourite fabulous line of Mr Done Oh : jing yao guan tou bu fang qi, jue wang jiu hui bian cheng xi wang .
Oh right , i have something interesting to post . Okay , i know some douche bags dont believe dogs actually can feel what you are feeling . well ... you can go hump a tree . dogs do have this way of knowing how we feel !
personally , i also think its not really true before . maybe its cause when you cry , the dog licks your face for comfort , its actually really because its curious of wth is coming out of your eyes . after tasting salty tears , it probably will come back for more .
My cousin has a dog called Betsy . Shes not my dog , neither do i really spend a lot of my time with that mutt , but i think i can relate to her . i guess its cause from young i already have this way with animals . im not boasting or lying okay ! I dont really have much compassion for dogs , because a damn dog bit me before . i used to hate and kinda scared of canine bitches .
But i grew used to this little betch and sometimes when im free i go and play with her lo . shes mostly lonely at home cause damian , my cousin goes to school . its only recently that i spend more time with her cause i bo liao at home nothing to do . -ahem-
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Anyway , the interesting part was , monday , yesterday , i was at home alone . O level result coming back , i never sleep - can't sleep - and kept crying non stop . somemore rain . makes me cry even more . I had to find some company to go to . something inside was telling me sooner or later i'd go crazy . Weirdly enough , usually i'd go to a friend , like jie , but somehow my legs took me to my grandmother's house .
usually Betsy's favourite way of greeting was to bark uncontrollably , but when she saw me at the door , no sound one . i went in and went straight to damian's room . the little mutt followed suit . i was already damn sad liek siao already and just wanted a hug . but if i hug my ah ma , she sure scared to death , cause i rarely hug people . back to the point , so i reached out for the dog and just held her to my chest , sobbing .
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I dont like touching her cause shes usually smelly and i mean ... shes a dog la . but that day , i think my brain fried lo , so i just hugged her . she struggled at bit so i let go . than she laid beside me , probably wondering whats gotten into her playmate . i told her , " Sorry Betsy , i can't stop crying " and stroked her behind the ears .
Then this bizarre moment happened . She sat up , ( since i was like sitting with knees held close to my chest ) and gently rested her chin on my knees , just inches from my face . usually at this point , i'd scream and push her away cuz she'll start licking my face for no reason , but i didn't . i just stared at her . and she looked back , this warm expression on her face . i never seen that look before , but it was so gentle and peaceful . she never stirred but she just looked at me , inches away from my face .
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I think i sobbed louder , so she nuzzled me on my nose . and licked my eye . as gross as it sounds , i felt as if it was her way of comforting me . i gave her another hug , and this time , she didn't move back . Instead she rested her head on my shoulder .
i swear , i felt so touched . this dog isn't even mine , and i dont really treat her damn good . but she came to comfort me . i dont mean to sound all mushy and ewey , but i think i came to terms that i love this little dog .
she stopped me from crying altogether . her tiny gesture was enough to stop my tears from running .
I say , thank you , little dog . you stopped me from going crazy .
XOXO evelynn .
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