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If you visit this blog occasionally, you should know my battle with acne. I'm currently 23 years old and it's a war I still face every day when I get up and look at myself in the mirror. 

I have suffered from horrid acne for a good 10 years of my teenage life, and it doesn't seem to be stopping. I have tried facials, diets, masks, almost every anti-acne product proven to get rid of acne and even the famous NIKS Maple Clinic. 

Which turned this:
 


Into this:


As of now, 12 October 2017, it has been a good three years with NIKS Maple Clinic and of recent, I have had a relapse back into break-out pimple city. It started out with smallish pores two months back after I returned from Bangkok and has now transformed into a crazy red mess. 

 

I am currently afflicted with horrendous looking spots in the front of my face, specifically around the T-zone, chin and mouth area. Pimples have been begun sprouting on my neck (that hasn't happened in 3 years) and it seems to be a non-stop series of eruption. 

I have suffered acne for so long, I'd think I would be numb to the number of pimples on my face now, (which is considerably lesser than before) but I'll be honest, I feel terrible. I've been busting my pockets for 3 years because NIKS isn't that cheap lol, it costs me over hundreds to replenish stock and I'm not sure how long I have to keep going with the products. 

I visited NIKS a couple of weeks back and missed an appointment with Dr Ong last week (cause of Halloween Horror nights) and am contemplating going to see a polyclinic to obtain oral medication instead of using the topical creams. I'll be frank, at this point of time, even with the help of NIKS, I feel awfully lost. Like this acne is a battle that can't be won. I know it's hormonal acne - the kind that is the most difficult to cure, and I know it's not as bad as it looks, but my heart sinks every time I look into a mirror.

I'm so afraid of more breakouts that I don't even put on makeup anymore in fear that it will cause a clog in my face. I've even been avoiding milk, drinking tons of water and eating fruits, thinking that perhaps a diet change might work. But alas, I am still plagued with pimples. 

;; on the positive side, I'm glad my forehead is cleared and clean of any pimples. 

Dear readers, I don't know what to do anymore. Please send help ;(
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With late nights, constantly eating fast foods and hormones going abuzz during when mother nature decides to give us a dosage of the red sea; our skin (or rather MY skin) tends to go off the deep porous end and break out especially when i don't want it to. Dear readers, you know me; I've suffered major cases of acne - mostly during my teen years and at random intervals in my 20s.

I even went to a skin clinic to get it fixed, but alas, even though it is not as bad as before, it is still frustrating to see my skin break out during my period daze. So much for being over 21 and you will stop seeing acne. Ugh. I have sensitive oily combination skin and recently broke out in HIVES of pores because of my irregular sleeping patterns, sigh.

BUT FEAR NOT, for here comes Hiruscar's newest Anti Acne products! 



Hiruscar's Anti-Acne range is literally what it's stated. Created to address mild to moderate acne conditions from Blackheads, Whiteheads, Papules and Pustules, it helps to:

1.Control sebum secretion
2. Reduce bacteria
3. Remove dead skins cells
4. Balances skin moisture levels 
5. Reduces acne recurrence

It is specially formulated to be gentle on skin, to help sensitive skin users such as myself for it is non-irritating and perfect for facial usage and acne-prone skin. It's also supposed to be lightweight which allows quick absorption into your skin - that's a definite plus for people who enjoy putting on makeup - no one wants over-oily products on your skin.


How to use?

Step 1: Cleanse 
Cleanse with Hiruscar Anti Acne Pore Purifying Cleanser 


Benefits:
  • Gentle formulation  
  • Deeply cleanses without drying the skin 
  • Removes excessive dirt and sebum 
  • Balances the skin’s moisture

Usage directions: Wet your face with clean water, gently massage the gel on your face and rinse thoroughly.


The transparent cleanser comes out from a pump, a gel-like substance that has a pretty medicinal whiff to it.  (i am not exactly sure how to explain it) Doesn't smell bad at all, sort of like the tea-tree salicylic acid scrub I used before. It feels very cooling on the skin especially after you rinse it off, and your skin doesn't feel tight, just real cleansed. 



Step 2: Tone & Moisturize
Hiruscar Anti Acne Pore Purifying Serum 


Benefits

  • Light-weight moisturizer for acne prone skin 
  • Reduces excessive sebum which can cause acne formation 
  • Tightens pores 
  • Light and non-greasy texture

Usage directions (found at the side of the box): After cleansing your face, apply the serum across your face twice daily. Once in the morning and once before bed.


It's a translucent white lotion that DOESN'T FEEL AT ALL GREASY. I'm sorry but let me just rave about how lightweight it is on your skin for a moment - I was skeptical because it looked like sun block lotion (and we all know how sun block feels awfully greasy) but it was super light on my skin, absorbing fairly quickly and leaving a smooth sensation on my cheeks ahh. 


Step 3: Treat
Pimples go away with Hiruscar Anti Acne Spot Gel


Benefits:

  • Reduces acne problems like blackheads, whiteheads & pimples 
  • Salicylic Acid for anti-acne benefits
  • Vitamin C derivative to lighten acne spots and dark marks 
  • MPS to maintain skin’s moisture

Usage directions: Apply a thin layer on affected areas, 2 – 3 times daily.


The spot gel is basically like a mini moisturizer as well, applying it on my inflamed cheek did not burn or anything. It's definitely gentle on the skin, even with my opened pores, I do not feel any sting. So this is HERO product of the range, developed for acne problem skin, for it helps in dissolving clogs and excess oil. 

It is proven* to improve pimple conditions, reducing dark marks and you can see acne improvement in 2 days! (*individual results varies) So let's put it to the test then, it's just nice that my skin has recently decided to break out like an overgrown lawn so you can definitely see the acne on my cheek ugh.

LOOK AT MY ANGRY PIMPLES.


So, what happens after 2 days of usage? See for yourself.


IT'S GONE. All that's left is basically semi-scar redness. exccuuuuuuuseee me whattttt???


A close up look with NO EDITS DONE WHAT IS THIS SORCERY??? 

Interested? I'd be. You can purchase this at any Watsons & Guardian stores but why not sign up for a free spot gel sample to get a trial at Sample Store?

To redeem a sample just click here! Fight away those acne blues today with Hiruscar's Anti Acne Range!




*Quick disclaimer: I am also using NIKS products alongside the Hiruscar - especially since I don't have a pimple spot cream 
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been a while since i did one of these but HELLO everyone, here's a quick update on my skin. I've been using NIKS maple clinic products for perhaps a good two and a half years now and so far I've not gone back to having the red pimply blotches on my face. thank heavens (ugh)

HOWEVER, of recent, I am noticing a pattern of pores(?), big and small bumps around my forehead, eye and chin area. They aren't bulbous and red for sure, but they sure are nasty to look at close up. I don't know why I've been getting said bumps but other than that, my cheeks are relatively clean from red ugly pimples like before - kinda like the picture down below.



I'm glad to be rid of that, and I hope it continues to be less of a pain in the future, but right now I'm still trying to figure out whats up with the bumps near my T-zone and eyes and chin. Probably have to go to NIKS Maple Clinic after a good hiatus of a year (hoho) and head down to see whats up. Will update this space when that happens next Monday.

Keep an eye out here!


Update:

Hello!
I'm back from my incredibly lucky trip from NIKS Maple Clinic - why you ask? I was honestly LAZY as all hell, pardon me, to visit the clinic on Monday (yesterday) because I had just came back from an extremely long Malaysia getaway. I didn't want to face the awful morning queue so I decided against waking up way too early and sleeping in. If you guys don't know, Niks Clinic is infamously cROWDED on Monday mornings, trust me, I've been there, done that.

Because Dr Ong has been raved on countless of blogs, articles, forums sites and etc, many flock to visit the clinic on specific dates when shes in. Hence, Monday is usually overcrowded with people of all ages, a snaking queue that makes you wonder if waking up at 8am is worth it.

So yesterday I sort of gave up and went ah I'm not going to queue up at 8am because I'm tired and it's not THAT bad. Samuel came over and out of sheer curiosity, I asked him to help me check if the clinic was crowded - I thought it would be overbooked, but since he was somewhat on the way; I inquired if it was alright for him to take a look.

Lo, and behold. He told me that it wasn't that crowded and he got a number queue ticket for me. I was to head back there in an hour or so for my checkup. I was befuddled. Monday afternoon? Empty? Is it not Dr Ong?

Yes, Samuel assured. It is Dr Ong.

And it dawned on me. I never went on Monday afternoons. I always thought that if their mornings were overbooked, their afternoons would be hell. Apparently, I may be wrong, but I'll get back to that.

Anyway waited for a long while because I thought my number 9 ticket was a number 5, and finally went in to get my face examined. As usual, Dr Ong was cheery and friendly - immediately noticing my breakout pores and pimples, she asked me about my routine and if I was following it. She told me that I was having a breakout because of my oily t-zone. My recent thailand trip + Malaysia trip was the cause of it because I did not take care of my skin with little sleep and water. Pores apparently can take up to 2-3mths to fully appear - gasp.

I gave her my brief run down and she offered me advice. I wasn't using enough of the stevia cream - true, I had been putting on light layers and she advised me to plaster my face with a thicker layer of it. She prescribed me their sun block as well as another cream to put on my T-zone in the morning.

As usual, she told me to sleep earlier, drink more water and USE SUN BLOCK. Yes, Dr Ong I will. She told me to come back in 4 weeks to check on my skin and we bid our farewells.

So right now my face is covered in multiple layers of cream and my pocket is busted from the $160 bill. Cross my fingers it will recover soon, until then, I'll update you guys!

xoxo
evelyn
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Stop making fun of people with acne.

Stop even pointing it out. We know. It's the biggest blotchiest elephant in the room. For some, it's the biggest hurdle of social anxiety. It's the thing that's caused our low self esteem, our heads hung low and our hesitant nature to look at another person in the eye. I know, I've been through it, still going through it, albeit, thank god it's not as bad anymore.

But every single time I hear someone point out the reddish zits on someone's face, I can't help but feel immensely annoyed.

Look buddy, for some, even changing their lifestyle or food choices can't cut it. For some, the problem lies in heredity and acne can still plague a person way over their 20's all the way into adulthood. It's such a cruel thing to look at someone suffering from acne and point out how 'gross' or 'disgusting' their face looks. Some, like myself, have ruined our skin with more zits and scars with the harsh treatments we thought were going to make a difference. Do you know how it feels like to wake up in the morning and avoid the mirror because you are afraid of how hideous you look?

Stop telling us to wear makeup to cover it up. Some of us have sensitive skin and can't wear too much makeup - in fear that it might irritate the skin even more. Why should we cover up our pimples? Why should you be in command of how we should look? I've gotten so many comments before, asking me why I don't wear makeup to cover up the blemishes on my face, that I will look so much pleasant if I do cover it up. Have you ever considered for even a god-damned minute; that that minuscule comment you've just made might have just crushed someone's world?

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"It's out of concern," some say, appalled. "We thought you didn't know."

A good portion of what attracts people to you is not how you look, as much as that matters so much in this post-modernistic narcissistic world. I chastise the idea: to be visually beauteous is to be right, and anything else, wrong, that's an awful stigma that should be banished. Stop making it seem as if having acne is an abhorrent problem that the world should not come witness to.

It's not wrong, it's not wrong, it's not wrong. Stop making fun of people with acne.

We don't need finger wagging, we don't need constant updates about how our skin looks like. We don't need you to tell us how horrid we look, we are not here to impress you. It's not like we want to look like this. Some of us suffer from depression, hiding in our houses all day long because we are afraid to go out looking like this, feeling the shame: not from the zits but from the stares of people.

Judging, they stare.


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Why should we be ashamed to wear our skin? Rule of thumb: it's not your position to tell us what to do. I've suffered acne for a good 7 years of my life and I've heard the most ridiculously asinine comments that range from "Don't you wash your face," to "Why don't you wear some concealer on that".  Don't be ignorant. Please, for lord sake. 

People's expectations of how you look are based on over-exaggerated popular media, over-saturated beauty advertisements. Beauty should not be something that can be put on, taken off or diminished with physical flaws. Anyone who tells you differently are shallow, misguided souls, honestly if they are so, they are not worth your time. 

Idolized actors and actresses with "perfect" looking skin are considered physically appealing, but it's because they are under the spotlight of public scrutiny. Not to mention they probably can afford the luxury of highly priced dermatology work. Some of us can't, some of us have the misfortune that some products just don't work on our skin.

Please, for those who have suffered, or are still suffering from acne, you are not alone. Hang in there, keep your head up high. It's not easy to ignore the constant berating and bullying, but nothing worth having ever is.

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PS: If you are still looking for a way to treat your acne, you can read about my acne journey with NIKS Maple Clinic here.
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Being morbidly sick for a good sack of two weeks makes me really appreciate the times of being able to breathe through at least one god damn nostril. 

That's right, I've been bed-ridden (while not forcibly) because of this absurd flu, cough, fever combination that seemingly wants to fester inside even with anti-biotics, tons of cough medicine, pill after pill, AFTER PILL. Gosh darn it, I can barely make a proper YouTube vlog without pausing ever 5 minutes to hurl my phlegm out. "TOO MUCH INFO?" Well, I'm sorry your opulent eyes had to witness my disgusting vivid description. 

Since I am a total mess, still in the healing process, I thought I'd make up for my shit content on YouTube with some-what better content here on my blog. It's still a place where I do sit down and pen my thoughts even though I don't think a lot people have the time to read the ramblings of a random blogger, when there's sites out there that show you how to lead a fabulously fun and money wrenching life out with cafe hopping.

I digress.

As you may or may not know; this blog is wildly popular because of my old posts about my acne problems - crazily enough, I'm twenty-two and acne is still somewhat plaguing my life (alongside my LITERAL PLAGUE) and because of my sensitive acne prone skin, I am very skeptical about using BB creams, foundation, basically any sort of BB, CC creams/powders because I am afraid that my skin will hate me for it. 

Not gonna lie, I used to hate BB creams and powder presses because they made my pores awfully obvious (i'm shit at makeup) and causes my flared angry pimples to turn red and surly. I try not to incorporate foundation (*gasp*) into my makeup routine simply because I know my skin will be clogged, blocked, start getting all sensitive on me. Do note that foundation isn't the cause of my breakouts, but it does happen whenever I wear makeup for too long, ugh.

HOWEVER, I found something that definitely caught my eye. A little diamond in the mess of discombobulated content of YouTube who goes by the title of ElaineMokk. I've been an AVID FAN of hers because she's just so amiable and she does a lot of videos regarding acne makeup/skin care! I love her personality because she's just so open about her acne issues and I think that really takes a crapton of courage to muster up to talk about.

I stumbled across one of her recent YouTube videos talking about a BB cushion that caters to acne-prone customers. 

Low and behold, THE ETUDE HOUSE AC CLEANUP MILD BB CUSHION.

Before I even watched her video, I went to buy it. Yep. No hesitation at all because firstly: I've used Etude House's AC collection before ranging from their cleanser to their pimple spot cream and it's worked wonders for me, SO hearing that they have A BB CUSHION catered specifically for acne prone people WITHIN this Acne Clean Up collection, I went ahead and bought it.

In retrospect, that was like the most reckless purchase I ever made. I did not even watch the video and I rushed to Qoo10 to find the AC Clean Up Mild BB Cushion. Thankfully, they had this Qoo10 time sale on it and at 2am in the morning, I found myself squinting at my credit card information in the dim light of my iphone, typing the numbers down one by one and pondering whether I would be making the right decision.

Turns out I did.


BECAUSE I'M IN LOVE WITH THIS.


First of all, the packaging - I KNOW some people do not like how the way the AC Mild BB Cushion is packaged in a simple way, It has no button, or clasp to keep it shut securely - it just clamps down shut and I do know some people might find that rather unsecured but heck, I like how simple it is. Gone are the annoying buttons to press. It's compact, slim and easy to slot into my bag, no worries about the case being unsecured, it's been pretty closed tight even though I jiggle it around my school bad non stop.

I've never really used any of Etude House's foundation, BB creams or powders before so I can't exactly judge them on their old products, but if theres any tiny LITTLE setback of this BB Cushion, it it's cushion lol. It's unlike the ones I've used before - Innisfree's soft cushion - and it's definitely more plastic-ish compared to that. It does what it does for sure, but I'm just not a fan of it.


The etude house AC Cleanup Mild BB cushion (wow thats a mouthful) comes in three different colours. I picked Natural beige because my skin happens to be tan! 

Usually I would go for honey beige because that matches my tone the most, but oddly enough, the colours are slightly darker than what you see! I've seen reviews talking about how light beige doesn't really fit pale skin because it's darker than usual, and that's definitely true. Doesn't hurt me though, the natural beige fits snugly with my skin tone!




Texture wise, I LOVE HOW IT'S SO LIGHT ON MY SKIN. IT'S CREAMY IN A GOOD WAY! Easily spread out and you don't feel it hanging like an angry top coat of thick bloody paste, and the BB cream actually makes my skin feel fresh! It's got quite a sheer finish that doesn't make your skin look super dewey or matte, it's just right and it looks as if you haven't got any foundation on at all! Feels like that too - gosh I love how it makes my skin feel light and caressed by the tea-tree gods.

I have oily skin and even as a cream, it doesn't make my skin look oily and gives it a semi-matte sort of finish. Not to forget to mention that the AC Clean Up Mild BB Cushion has an SPF50+ and PA +++ for people like me who are kinda lazy to wear suncreen, oops. IT SMELLS LIKE TEA-TREE BY THE WAY! Not your usual gross BB cream scent but something really refreshing and nice. 


The problem that most people have with this product is it's coverage, and I gotta admit, it doesn't really have good coverage. For angry pimples, one round of AC BB Cushion won't cut it. I don't mind though, I suppose Etude House wanted to make it light on your skin so it won't clog your pores or something of that sort.

You can go over your pimples and or dark circles a few more times and it does last for a good 4-5 hours without looking too patchy over your skin. 


THE BEST PART OF THIS BB CUSHION IS THAT IT DOES NOT CAUSE MY SKIN TO BREAKOUT AT ALL. In fact, my red pimples don't flare up after long hours of wearing this BB Cushion, holy moly what a godsend. 


PROS: 
LIGHT WEIGHT ON SKIN (SO COMFY)
SMELLS FREAKING GOOD
Stays on for a good 4-5 hours
Look very natural with a semi-matte finish 
Great for my stupid oily skin

CONS:
I don't like the puff (IMO)
Coverage doesn't do much to hide your acne/pimples

Overall, it's light on your skin, makes your skin just LOVE YOU for it because it feels actually feels fresher and controls (maybe even some what stop breakouts) breakouts! Coverage might not be that great but you can always cover up with concealer of your own! It doesn't bother me even after 4-5 hours of walking out in the sun, staying pretty nicely on the skin without looking patchy. Kudos to that!

Them eyebags are not coverd but at least my skin doesn't look oily even after jumping up and down for hours

On a side note, I was originally supposed to go to Korea to stock up on all these good korean products but now I am not. Sigh, looks like I will have to count on you, Mom. THANK YOU I LOVE YOU hehe.

So that's sorta the end of this post, I tried doing a review (IM NOT SPONSORED BTW) on a makeup cushion. Woop. I'm still sick even after writing this long draft, please send some help or honey. See you guys on YouTube.

xoxo
evelyn
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It's been awhile, hello there world, how are you?

I honestly feel slightly bad about this entire blog being completely abandoned for my Youtube but it's quite difficult juggling school, work, youtube and blogging (plus other ad hoc stuff) all the time. STILL, I hope you guys are here because I've decided to do a little update on my NIKS CLINIC JOURNEY!

I know you guys have been waiting for this. Sorry about the wait because I'm terrified of jinxing myself but I think it's about time I done this! I'm finally going to do a review on Niks maple clinic and how I got my life back on track. Cross my fingers that my skin will continue to behave!

If you guys do not know about it, here's the archives of my old Niks Clinic posts.

VIRGIN NIKS APPOINTMENT
SECOND UPDATE
THIRD UPDATE
FOURTH UPDATE
FIFTH UPDATE

And this will NOT be the last update because if we are being a little fastidious, my face isn't completely healed yet. Then again, it is just me being very anal about my skin because I still occasionally do have pimple spots that pop out during my period. 

Just a little backstory about my acne journey - I was plagued with acne ever since I was in Secondary school and it's never left me since. I've gone for facials, dusted my face with crazy amounts of face products, cried myself to sleep because I couldn't stand the SIGHT of my pimples on my face, gone through a great bout of unrest because of my acne. Honestly, these pimples lITERALLY get under my skin. (ba dum tiss)

Looking back at the major 6-7 years of my life, I'm surprised that I never thought of seeing a skin doctor. My mom always tells me it's hormones and ya-da ya-da not enough sleep, not enough vegetables - yes I'm pretty sure that plays a good part as well BUT I was unfortunately still plagued with acne, even after good sleep and good healthy organic food.

It was only after a few hours of research and much discussion with my best friend, Samuel, that I finally decided to give NIKS MAPLE CLINIC (my savior) a try! 

I started my NIKS journey on the 18 of August 2014.

AND WELL. Here are the results. 

I took photos of my face every morning after I wake and washed up - excuse the cringe-worthy faces, I was probably internally cursing the sun's rays.

WARNING: MANY ZITS AND REALLY SAD FACES UPCOMING AHEAD




2014

SECOND WEEK OF NIKS

THIRD WEEK OF NIKS


OCT

LATE OCT


NOV

MID NOV

DEC

LATE DEC


2015

Early feb

MAY


JULY


SEP


NOV


MID NOV
(after I came back from Taiwan)


 

LATE NOV


DEC


2016

FEB

JUNE


AND FAST FORWARD TO TODAY





 TAKEN TODAY (6/9)

I won't lie to your guys, my face still does have scars and occasional zits that pop up from time to time, but it's definitely considerably lesser than a year ago. 




As you can tell, the different is devastatingly huge. I can honestly now look in the mirror and not cry LOL. For a bout of time during my secondary school days, I remembered feeling ugly all the damn time because of my acne. 

Today, I feel so much more confident! Stepping out into the sunlight world without makeup powdered all over my face, I have to really sincerely thank Dr Ong from NIKS Maple Clinic, because without her help and guidance, my face wouldn't be the way it is today. Thank you, NIKS. Thank you, Dr Ong.

Until the next skin update guys!

xoxo
evelyn
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